Little Moments of Joy

I get asked often what I've learned since Sam has died. I feel it's a loaded question because there's still so much for me to learn, but the past few weeks I've tried to stop and really enjoy the sweet moments I have with my kids. I have found the most comfort and joy in very simple events. I was baking for a young women's activity, I had Christmas music on, Emery was playing in the sink and Emmet was at my feet playing Bakugan and I hadn't felt that happy in a long time. I've realized it's not the big events that bring me joy, but very quiet subtle moments. How grateful I am for those. I'm hoping many moments of "joy" happen in the next few weeks. I thought this year the holidays would be easier, but I'm also learning that it's going to take a lot longer than I thought to make it through the holidays without tears.