Eleven Months--Saturday

Wow--I'd like to say time flys, but it sure hasn't. I think it has really slowed down for me this year. Saturday it will be the 11th month mark and the count down begins to the year mark. Emmet still talks constantly about his dad. He's currently wondering why I'm not having a baby boy. Thankfully his cousin Sol came to the rescue and Emmet now believes we aren't having a baby because a baby can't come out of a mom's tummy unless the dad is there to help!! I encourage him to keep thinking that direction. A year ago Sam was almost home from the hospital. He was coherent enough that Sam and I watched Nacho Libre on his lap top one night in his hospital room.

This was our last family picture. The kids never spent too much time with Sam. I was always afraid they would pull one of the chords and it always took too much energy for Sam to talk to them. Sam always tried hard to appear to not be as sick as he was for the kids!

Thanks to Emmet's picture taking ability, we have my ultimate favorite picture of Sam. I love his eyes in this picture! This was taken a year ago this month. When Sam came home from the hospital he spent most of his time on the couch watching the kids. The kids were great at playing beside him and every morning Emery would go over and pat her dad on the leg to say good morning. He loved that.

A few fun days...

We've had a few fun days to help lift our spirits. We had a cousins Halloween Party that was a lot of fun and our ward's trunk-or-treat. Emmet is a red Power Ranger (of course). He has been obsessed with Power Rangers SPD for almost a year now. His costume has to look like an SPD Ranger, so thank goodness for ebay!! Emery was a princess. I still can not get over how much she loves being girly. She loved her costume, shoes and all.



Okay so the next two pictures, Emmet and Emery are naked. The anal mom that I am could not have their costumes get dirty on the first day of wearing them.


We went horseback riding for FHE and had a great time. I had no idea how exhilarating riding a horse can be. I had the opportunity to really ride a galloping horse. I think in my past life I was a cow girl!! Emmet really could care less about the animals, but Emery absolutely loved them. She loved riding with me. We watched cows being roped and although Emery liked all of this, she hated the smell of poop. She would cover her nose and yell poop, poop. It was quite funny.


Do you love the gang sign? Who is my son?

It's Been Ten Months

It's been ten months since Sam's passing and I was looking at pictures. I was reminiscing about my favorite vacation we took together. We spent a week (before Emmet) in Cabo San Lucas, just lounging around on the beach. Sam made me jump on a bus, take a ride to an obscure beach for surfing and we took a walk off of the beaten path and stumbled upon our favourite restaurant, The Sleepless Lobster. (That's where the picture was taken) I think we ate there three times in one week. I also spent that week reading, Gone With The Wind, which I ended up throwing the book across the hotel room because I hated the ending. It needed to end happier. Anyway, I loved that week Sam and I spent together in Mexico.

I can do girls hair!

I had to just post this picture because who knew I could make Emery's hair so cute. Emery slept on pin curlers and the first day her hair truly looked hideous. But on the second day her hair looked really cute!! I also like this picture because she's my little worker. She loves to help me around the house doing chores (Emmet has NEVER been like that). Her favorite chore is putting the clean silverware away and she's really good at it. I was quite impressed.

Emmet Turns Four

How amazing is it that Emmet is four. I can't believe how quickly four years have gone by. It was such a bittersweet day. On one hand it was a day to remember Emmet's birth and all of the excitement surrounding it. Especially because he's my first, there is always a little added excitement. On the other hand it was a very hard day. I cried more than I expected. It's hard to imagine Sam was here four years ago sharing in the same excitement I felt on that day. Sam was the first one to hold Emmet. I'm glad he had that moment. What was even harder was that Sam's last visit to AZ was Emmet's third birthday. He was feeling sick then and was able to get out of bed to attend the party, but slept the rest of the weekend. Fortunately, Emmet had a great birthday. We celebrated it by first attending his soccer game where he scored a goal!! Then he had his party at his Karate studio. Emmet loved it, I learned that birthday parties are not fun for the parent throwing it. I was exhausted by the end!

Emmet's First Soccer Game

Yesterday Emmet had his first soccer game!! We had a lot of fun sitting outside in 100 degree weather. Fortunatley we had a little shade to keep cool. Emery didn't care much about the game, she enjoyed drinking the gatorade and spilling it all over her shirt. Emmet on the other hand loved the whole "team" sport experience. He scored his first goal and to much to my surprise Emmet gave fives and thumbs up to his team mates when they scored goals. Emmet amazes me often. Who knew you could get teary eyed watching a soccer game. I just felt bad that Sam wasn't there to enjoy in the fun. He would have loved watching Emmet score a goal. Part of me hopes he did!

My Baby Is Two!

Emery turned two last week. It was quite bitter sweet. I'm excited for her to grow-up. Hopefully that means she'll sleep through the night more and I'm that much closer to being done with diapers. On the other hand I no longer have a baby, I have a toddler!!! She's cute, but I'll miss not having a baby. She loved her birthday. Who knew I would have a little girl who is so girly. She loves loves shoes. She got so many dress up shoes for her birthday and she plays with them non-stop. She came into the world loving shoes!